A Letter to Joe

If anyone has any contact with Joe Martorell, please get him to write me or call me.

Dear (former Youth Pastor) Joe,

Where in the world are you? Don't be afraid to talk to me. Why do you hide in the shadows? Why do you avoid me? Don't you know I'm aware of forgiveness? Don't you know I'd rather talk about things than to not talk at all? I'd rather you face the challenge of talking to me again instead of staying under the radar, living in fear. Fear of having to open up to me and admit that you're human.

Yes, I'm very sympathetic to what you went through eight years ago. I can't imagine what it's like to lose your father then lose one of the youth group kids nearly the same time. Please remember that your dad came to know Jesus before leaving this world. I will never forget the glow on his face, and on yours, after he made the salvation decision. And you couldn't do anything about Mike, so don't blame yourself. It was hard for all of us. I'm now a youth group leader as well and I would be devastated if any of the kids under my care took his or her own life. Didn't realize that it wouldn't take long for you to buckle under all the pressure. I don't even know what you did; everyone told me you did something that caused you to lose your ministry, that was it. Whatever you did I only hope you've already placed it under the blood of Christ.

Come on Joe, don't just avoid me because of what happened in the past. Man, the time I needed you most was back in college. Of all things, I barely asked you for help while I was in youth group, but then after youth group was when all the crap happened to me. No, don't stinkin' feel guilty over another thing now. All I want is for you to overcome! And the first step would be to talk to me. Or if you've already overcome, talk to me anyway. You know very well that nothing you did was so bad that God can't forgive you. And nothing you did was so bad that you can't tell me, or at least give me an idea of what garbage you had to go through. Don't think that I don't know about all the corruption and evil in the world. And don't think I don't know what Christians have to face all the time, either.

So stop thinking about yourself and your mistakes. You know what to do already. Yes, that's right: bless others with what you've learned from the past and help others to overcome as well. If it'll make you feel better, you could make up for everything by showing me what it means to be more than a conqueror.

I'll talk to you soon.

mtc,

L